Monday, March 16, 2009

Someday....

I'll get the urge to blog again. Ever since the whole new job incident I have been battling a very odd sort of depression which accumulated into a very large and very pathetic emotional breakdown yesterday. I am still feeling pretty weepy and sorry for myself but today, as usually happens after a storm, is starting to look up. I am hoping, praying, wishing and intending for things to get a lot better.

Nobody wants to read a sad, negative complainy weight loss blog. Readers want to be inspired and feel like there are kindred spirits out there going through the same ups and downs that they are. So I am trying very hard to get my doo-doo together and get my head back in the weight loss game. Posting may be sporadic but I wanted to let you know that I am still here, I am still fat and I am still trying. Take care. :)

7 comments:

TJ said...

(((HUGS))) Hang in there Olivia! Please check in and let us all know how your doing! Im rootin for you!

:)tj

H.K. said...

Your post just reminds me that we all have our bad days. Writing is therapeutic. It helps to write how we feel...all the bad, the good, and the ugly! So write whatever you feel.

Tomorrow is a new day! :0)

joyfullgrrrl said...

this too shall pass. intention is the biggest tool we have - if you intend to be well then you shall be. we just have to be open to what that will look like :)

bright blessing and much love!!!

Sophia said...

Olivia,
I'm so sorry for the pain you are feeling. I do hope you will keep blogging if it brings you some peace and some growth. We do look to weightloss blogs to be inspirational but the most honest ones are not just about what goes right and how many pounds one is down. Whether you write or not, hang in there. You *will* find your way through this darkness.

Amanda aka SuperPucky said...

I have so been where you are at more times than I would care to count. I think the one thing that seperated me from success was giving up completely. It is ok to feel crappy it is ok to be depressed. It is also comforting to know that it will end. Don't be afraid to ask for help. I had to learn that the light at the end of the tunnel is not an on comming train. When your legs are back underneath you, stand up and move forward. You can do it!

SmushPants said...

I stopped blogging for 5 months for the very reasons you stated. Maybe it's not so bad to post a couple whiny entries so that those of us experiencing the same thing know we aren't the only ones going through it!

I too am still fat and still out here. My husband though lost 20 pounds (and at his goal) which has added to my feelings of failure and now also guilt. I am still not done being totally sorry for myself, though I am finally hitting a point that I am getting tired of feeling sorry for myself. My first step back was to return to my blog. I'm hoping it helps.

I hope it helps you to know we are here for you too, even when you are sad. Sometimes we need to get inspired before we can inspire others.

Amanda aka SuperPucky said...

The words of a gospel song I love brings hope to me sometimes when I am at my lowest. Perhaps it may for you:

There will be mountains that I will have to climb,
and there will be battles that I will have to fight.
But victory or defeat, it's up to me to decide,
but how can I expect to win if I never try.

I just can't give up now,
come too far from where I started from;
nobody told me the road would be easy and I don't believe He brought me this far to leave me.

Never said there wouldn't be trials, never said I wouldn't fall,
never said that everything would go the way I want it to go.
But when my back is against the wall and I feel all hope is gone,
I'll just lift my head up to the sky and say help me to be strong.

I just can't give up now,
come too far from where I started from;
nobody told me the road would be easy
and I don't believe He brought me this far to leave me.

No, He didn't bring me out here to leave me lonely,
even when I can't see clearly I know that You are with me,
so I can't...
repeat chorus.

This song is by Mary Mary and has at least offered me some strength to get though some dark, dark moments in my life.