Friday, May 30, 2008
I desperately need to go to the grocery store but am waiting till next week to find out how much money I can spend on food after rent and bills are paid. This sucks! I really want to eat fresh, healthy locally grown foods but being cash poor at the moment is making it incredibly hard. It didn't help either that I ate very little throughout the day so that after a full days work my body was ravenous. Again, not the best time to make food decisions. Couple that will the fact that I need to make my money stretch further and we are right back to square one. Buying high calorie, low nutrition food for under $7. THAT IS HOW I GOT THIS BIG IN THE FIRST FRIGGIN' PLACE! I WANT OUT OF THIS CYCLE! NOW!!
I get so frustrated sometimes with my lack of imagination when it comes to healthy cheap foods. I have champagne tastes on a beer budget. In this country that's not a good thing because everything fresh and nutritious costs the most. So what do I do? Does anyone out there have any suggestions?
I know that this post seems angry, cause it is, but I don't want that to be the tone of my blog. So I am going to suck it up, drink some water and try to get a good nights sleep so that I may start fresh and new tomorrow.
See ya then!
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
So I rushed to the shower, cursing the whole time.....I hate being rushed in the morning. I usually get over heated and sweaty and I can't seem to cool down the rest of the day. It sucks. I get to work and begin my very long day of taking care of others and I can feel a tension headache coming on. As a massage therapist I should make it a point of getting a regular massage myself but it has been well over 3 months since I last had one. The pain and tension just kept building and building until finally, today, I couldn't take it anymore.
The reason I am giving you this much info is that since I felt so awful, I opted to get a 90 minute deep tissue massage instead of going to the gym. I wish that I had time to do both but the massage won out in the end.
My eating today was really good....until the evening. I had lunch around 1:30 and wasn't able to have dinner until 9pm. My massage did get out until 8:30pm so by that time I was ravenous and I think that we all know that when you are crazy hungry you don't make the best decisions. So I had Chinese food, which I really don't like but it was one of the only things open that late that wasn't drive thru.
So I am not going to beat myself up, I already paid someone to do that earlier. Instead I am going to get a great nights sleep, hit the gym tomorrow morning and then begin my day. Actually I will be beginning my day with a lovely facial. Jealous? ;)
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Weight: 323.4 (gasp)
Age: 32 (sob)
BMI: 46.3 (good lord!)
Cruise weight: 260
End Goal Weight: 150
End BMI: 21.5
I damn near had an aneurysm when I got on the scale today. HOW?! Well it truly is time to buckle down and get healthy. I am starting to walk my talk. I have to lead by example for my clients since I am a massage therapist. People are always asking for advice for stretching, working out and what they can do food wise for there bodies in order to make them healthier. I can just imagine what they are thinking when I start to tell them how important water, healthy food, exercise and stretching is for them. "What does she know about it?"
Well, starting now I am speaking from experience!
Monday, May 26, 2008
I have been looking at a lot of weight loss blogs over the past few weeks trying to get ideas for what I would like to cover on this blog and what kind of system I will use. Then I started to over plan and over think and freak myself out. So I have decided to have a general guideline to follow with plenty of room for change and flexibility as needed.
I do have a few rules for myself that will hopefully help me stay sane and focused:
- Remember Olivia, this is a journey to health not a scary obsession with being thin.
- Approach this weight loss with a positive attitude, negativity has gotten you where you are which is why you need this blog.
- Hold myself accountable. I make the decisions as to what I eat, drink and how I move or don't move.
- Weigh myself only once a week.
- Do some sort of physical activity everyday. Extensive workouts at least 3 times a week.
- Take my measurements once a month.
- Come up with a non-food based reward system for achieved weight loss goals.
- Eat and prepare real food. No processed fake foods or sugar substitutes.
- Focus on well rounded total health such as; vitamins, meditation, body treatments and plenty of restful sleep.
- Most importantly: Have Fun! Enjoy this journey because this is your life NOW.
Since I do not own a scale and have no intentions of buying one I will be weighing myself at the gym which is yet another reason to get my butt there on the regular. I already have a tape measurer around here somewhere and as soon as I find it I will post my measurements.
See ya tomorrow!